Too often we take what we have for granted.
Life, for example. Waking up each morning is a true gift. Each day should be lived as if it were our last. Instead of moping around, seize the day.
Love. I believe it is the absolute best feeling one can feel. Not everyone experiences true love, so if you have a significant other be thankful. Be a best friend. Be honest. Overuse “I love you”.
I’ve realized a lot lately. As much as I want things to be 100% perfect, that will never happen. And that’s fine, that’s life. Nothing is perfect. I try to control things. I want my relationship to be perfect; I don’t want it to end. I don’t want anything to come between us. But I feel as hard as I try to prevent that, I just end up digging myself in a bigger hole.
Every couple has their fights. Even a happily married couple has their ups and downs. And that’s normal. Honestly, what two humans are going to get along perfectly 24/7, especially a male and female? Being overly insecure isn’t going to get you anywhere. If anything, it’ll get you gone.
I’ve never had something so real and so amazing before. I just can’t let anything or anyone come between us. But I need to play my role and stop worrying about everyone else; at this point they are all irrelevant. All that matters is you and I from here on out.
Nobody’s perfect. We’re all full of flaws, but recognizing them and accepting each other for who we really are is what makes us flawless. When you find someone with all the traits and qualities you love, they become flawless. They’re perfect in your eyes due to the simple fact of what they have to offer.
What I don’t understand is how someone can repeatedly put you down and point out your flaws every day of the year. You work your ass off to help them, but that goes unnoticed. You cry and you’re called weak. You open up for the first time ever, and you “talk to much”. You vent, you’re a hypocrite.
I thought maybe I was the one in the wrong. Maybe I was this fucked up individual who didn’t know how to act. I would literally stay awake wondering how to be “normal”. I couldn’t speak on anything to the one I thought I could open up to, because no matter what I said, I would be wrong. Eventually that breaks you down. I’m insecure on my own, I don’t need someone to constantly point out everything that is wrong with me. There is a fine line between constructive criticism and saying demeaning things just to break someone down.
At the end of the day we have to accept each other for who we are. Understand where that person comes from, what that person is going through. Appreciate what they do for you, not just of what you ask, but what they go out of their way to do. Give recognition when it’s needed.
So I hope you find someone who’s “perfect”. Someone who doesn’t cry. Someone who isn’t weak. Someone who doesn’t open up to you. Someone who isn’t a hypocrite. Someone who isn’t immature. Good luck.
It always snows at the worst times. Either it’s my day off and it snows or they call for a huge snow and I have to work. This time it was no different. I was off Tuesday, scheduled to work Wednesday and Thursday and the snow was expected to start Tuesday night. I’m the type of person that HATES to call off but if it snowed my car definitely wasn’t going to be able to get anywhere. Being in health care, they don’t care what is happening, you get NO days off and they expect you to be there for your shift, which is understandable.
I was planning on staying home Tuesday night but nope. My coworkers talked me into coming and spending the night so I’d be there for my shift Wednesday. It really wasn’t that bad. Administration had stocked us up on food and drinks and all my favorite people were there. Only one problem; they had only set up four air mattresses in an empty apartment but there was five of us sleeping over.
Victoria and Meagan got stuck with the chatterbox kitchen lady and we really didn’t feel like listening to her stories all night so Karena and I grabbed two mattresses and moved them to the spa. After Karena got off work we hung out with the night nurse and decided to head back to the spa to chill for a while. When we got back there was only one mattress. I started fuming; the kitchen lady REALLY took my mattress!? Aw hell no. Karena heard my bitching for the rest of the night. We both agreed to stay up until 0700 when Victoria and Meagan had to start their shift and the night nurse, Jen, would be ending hers. We would use their mattresses and sleep until our shift. Around 0300 we were so tired we had to sleep. I used the mattress and poor Karena slept on the floor.
Of course the cleaning lady came barging in at 0430 and woke me up. I woke up every hour after that because it was freezing cold in that room. Around 0700 I heard Meagan walk in, look around, and walk back out. “They only have one!” I heard her say. WELL DUH. MISS CHATTERBOX TOOK THE OTHER ONE. I kept thinking to myself…
Karena and I decided to move down to the empty apartment. I grabbed all my bags and as I walked into the shower where my work clothes were hanging, I noticed the MISSING MATTRESS propped up against the wall. Seriously? Victoria and Meagan decided to prank us for leaving them with the chatterbox and hid our mattress. HA. HA.
Jen joined us in the apartment and we all went to sleep. At 1315 we hear knocks on the door. A very pissed off Jennifer answered the door, only to hear Meagan telling us that she ordered pizza and as the Domino’s guy was delivering it, he crashed into my boss and coworker. Everyone was being sent to the hospital. But Domino’s did agree to deliver the next three pizzas for free. What are the odds, right?